First things first: I will not be taking down my previous post. I am not part of Armitage's PR team and that photo is their problem to deal with if they choose to do so and if it becomes a problem for his image. He doesn't read my blog anymore than he reads yours and if you are blogging to get that, to get his attention, then you and I are coming from two different places to begin with.
At no point in my original post did I say that I took that photo personally. It did hit me viscerally and that's a different thing. The list of things I cannot look at or listen to exists for my own protection because they provoke a panic response in me. Fic writers who I respect include trigger warnings when they deal with subject matter that could be problematic for some readers. They don't have to do that but they have the sensitivity to recognize that they are in community with their audience. There is a huge difference between a writer saying, "I'm tackling drug abuse and this piece contains a scene where the main character shoots smack," and a member of that writer's audience saying, "You shouldn't write that to begin with." Of course they should have the freedom to write it. If it happens as part of the human condition it's valid subject matter.
Community in general and this community in particular have always been my main concern from the beginning of this blog. I am not in community with Richard Armitage anymore than I am in community with anyone involved with Dead Poet's Society. When Neil took the gun out of his dad's drawer I panicked so hard I ran out of the theatre and threw up in the lobby. The movie remains an important exploration of freedom of expression and the relationship between Neil and his father, who views him as property and an extension of his own ego, rings unbearably true. I'm not saying the filmmakers shouldn't have made it, I'm saying I couldn't handle that scene.
I am, however, in community with you. Within moments of that photo set being Tweeted it was all over other blogs, Facebook and Tumblr. That's the way this community functions and I'm fully aware of that. The community became unsafe for me and my only option is to withdraw from it. It isn't anyone's fault, it just is. I don't expect anyone in this fandom to accomodate me and you're welcome to find it hilarious. I reserve the right to think you're a shitty human being for finding it hilarious. That's the way adulthood works, I get to make my own decisions and draw my own boundaries. While it sucks for me that I have to draw a boundary around a community that I've enjoyed being in it is my responsibility in terms of my own self-care to do that. I may be the only person saying it publicly but based on email that I've gotten this week I'm not alone in that.
You are welcome to care or not but I want to make one thing crystal clear and this will involve a couple of swears so if you're squeamish look away. This fandom praises Richard Armitage to the skies for the sensitivity and the accuracy of his portrayal of Lucas North's Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. If you can do that and then turn around and chastize me or anyone else who had a panic attack when that photo was posted then you're a fucking idiot and the person with the reality issue isn't me.